Alrighty, I thought that I should stop leaving you people hang around and lurk at my arts and never make a peep about it and not know what the fruck is going on - especially 'cause it's starting to eat me away D8 - ... and plus, this has been something that I've been thinking about doing, for a long time ... and the more that I thought about it, the more that I want to do it. To put an end to this account.


Well... were to start? I've been on this account since flippin` 2oo4 ... and ever since the "great glitch-tation" (...waht? as I named it 8D;... ) from long ago, my profile has been screwed up, at least, I think it is; if you've been with me for long enough, you'd probably remember that one time where my profile got merged with some other random person's profile. and how my age was displayed as ANCIENT 251235151241 age old ... before Sheezy's systems have been changed .... also... my join date is when internet was just invented? waht? ... Personally it doesn't bother me all that much. Maybe it's what's in my gallery that's been bugging me. I mean, SURE IT'S EASY TO GO AND DELETE A FEW HUNDRENDS OF SUBMISSIONS 8D ... but I really don't want to ... they're sort of like ... memories. Plenty of my past arts had LOADS of friendly comments as well as comments from dear friends that have decided to quit Sheezy. LIES IT'S NOT THE ARTS, IT'S NOT THE ACCOUNT'S PROBLEMS. IT'S THE PEOPLE YES. *only knows how to blame others (...)* 8D!!!

To say the truth, I actually just wanted to leave Sheezy for "good" =_=;; notice how I don't even submit? (well ... if you see me wondering around on Gaia, I've done plenty of arts in the past year and have barely submitted a shyt on here) ... hm. ... anndd I was probably going to be on deviantArt more since, well, most of my friends are there ... and I feel lonely on Sheezy here >: 'cause.... most of the more 'close friends' (known for years/since I started Sheezy) that I have made here have either a.) mysteriously disappeared somewhere / never talk to me again | b.) quit Sheezy and/or moved to deviant | c.) still around, some but barely any of them ... ..... it's a bit hard on me||| .... I mean, if I can reach out to my friends somewhere else, then, there is practically no point of having a SheezyArt account! or rather... having an account to even BOTHER updating?! 8DDD annd I only wanted a way to ughm. "communicate" with my friends so *shrugs* right now, I'm not very intertested in making "friends" ||OTL ... I fail as a person and a friend, anyways;;; and I've become SO PARANOID over the years that I can only think of betrayal amonst friend heh............... *experienced it too much* it pains me. *ahem* ... well, not that anyone's really watching this account, anyways, *shrugs* seeing how no one ever bothers with reading my 1o-page journals like they used to do :'33 it's only friends (from Gaia/etc.) that does, now; ... what's my SheezyArt account for, again? Art? ||ORZ

I guess, I'm longing for a new start.


... I can tell you many tales of what a horrible person I am, from the past 'till now [...so and and so forth] ... but hell, who cares, srsly? LOL;; ... I like ... fail. Srsly fail -- as a person, and more over, as a "friend" to/of many people ...! It makes me feel horrible the way that I even dare call myself a friend or let the other person call me a "friend" ... I really don't deserve their HOMFG kindness and patients ... being the stubborn jackass that I am;; I really don't think I deserve their nice-ness towards me ... ! |||OTL ... and it makes it seem like I am DECEIVING PEOPLE D8 even though THEY are the ones making the assumptions of the fact that I am an "innocently cute and naive and happy no worry" person -- well, apparently, I'm not. I've got plenty of life problems to worry about, heh. Oh, money, family, woe. But I chose to know whine and complain about my "petty" issues; knowing that there are MUCH GREATER issues OTHER people are experiencing -- and no, I'm not talking about shyt like OMG.I.GOT.GROUNDED.I.HATE.MY.PARENTS ... no. I'm not that stupid, pleaseee. I have a mind, I use it. *rolls eyes* unlike most people now-a-days :'3 Being an antisocial person has made me more....... philosophical? (as someone has told me... x] ... )

... now-a-days, I don't even understand WHY I get on SheezyArt ... I used to LOVE to come on Sheezy everyday! To check comments, to check arts, to comment arts ... and so on and so forth .... but now it's just like ............. a force of "habit" from over the past years, I suppose? ... but when I get on here ... I only STARE at the numbers of updates, never even BOTHER to click on the art pieces - maybe every once in a fricking half moon - but I pretty much come on here to NUKE my updates;; and I find that sad. I mean... SURE I know who fav+ my fricking old Edward or Ritsuka fanart ... and SURE I know who's just watch+ me ;;; .. and SURE I read the comments, I really do! ... and I even MENTALLY reply to them ;;; but I just never type them down in actual words and click the so-called-submit button;;; .... and I AM really greatful that people like my shyt. It makes me happy and fluffy inside like an idiot.... /// ......... but, apparently, I'm such a loser ... so... sorry. ... and well, I guess I AM getting tired of nuking all the stuffs all the time;;; but I'm too lazy to go through my crazy watchlist o_0...

This account has been " dead " long ago. Not because I haven't submited arts. Not because I don't reply to comments. It feels dead to me. It's dead. It doesn't make me "happy" anymore when I submit arts on here. And I think it hurts more to see like 5o+ views on a piece of art and have less than 3 comments. And most of the comments are from people that I know off this site ... isn't that even more sad? Or rather. pathetic? In my mind. I mean, sure, yah, I see fav's every now and then ... but I sometimes get really tired of people's fav+`ing my Edward (FMA) fanart from ages ago;;;; .... or something like that. ||| ...

I know many of my watchers are still active and lurking about on my account D8 but it's sad to see that they don't want to erm. interact (?) with me anymore. It starts to make me wonder why. OR, RIGHT, WAS IT 'CAUSE I STARTED EMO`ING EARLIER THIS YEAR, SO I SCARED YOU ALL AWAY? Alot of things happened this year. It's been a pretty terrible shitty year for my friends and me... and hay? What can I say? Shyt happens. So why can't I complain about it? Hm? At least, some of these things, I've been carrying the "burdon" for many years, so I'm just letting out a seep of that, and here the rest of the population wants to say " OMG, SHE EMO, I DUN LIK3 HER NO MOAR " ?? .... okay, well, gee, thanks. It makes me feel very ignored/neglected/silent-treatment`d!! ... I really hate that shyt and can't deal with it D8 SO I ONLY KNOW HOW TO RUN AWAY, OKAY? ... anyways, instead of pinpointing people ... I'll just thank those awesome people that's been sticking with me since the start and those awesome people that joined my HAPPY&COOL CREW OF PEOPLE (waht?) in the later years... :'333 ! .... although, alot of them aren't on Sheezy anymore owo...~


... I've met many many AMAZING people (not all artists) on Sheezy ... and a BUNDLE of truly sweet people TWT/// .... and so many of them are very "supportive" ... even though I'm such an un-deserving person u_u|||

oh... D8; did I forget to mention how sweet of a person is...? >_>||| ...!

I'd like to thank all of you that's comment`d / watch`d / fav`d my arts, etc. m(_ _)m ... and many thanks for those that have been taking care of me all of these years /// I know I'd have been SUCH a brat LOL;; ... and still am, just upgraded to a jerk >xD! Heh~ ... Extra Note: I didn't "quit" SheezyArt, I'm just "someone else" now :)